live life to the fullest

this week services are by dr joyce meyer, and is she good or what?!

yep, we should live life to the fullest. like what dr meyer said, we should not waste TODAY, regretting about the things we done YESTERDAY(past) or worrying about TOMMOROW.(future) how true is that? God gave us 1 life to live, shouldn't we live it to the fullest? regretting the things we've done won't change the past, so doesn't worrying about the future helps make anything better. ahh i remembered pst prince said smth really true, God told us not to worry because everything has been taken care of, but He didn't said don't PLAN for the future!

i was late for saturday service and boy i sure had a nice talk with cedric. :X well michelle said something during cellgroup: doing something consistently forms a habit, and habits form our lifestyle. so i'm consistently making people wait for me when i arrange an appointment with them, hence it becomes a habit, particularly, a bad one. since it's a bad habit, it would be really hard to change. now i wouldn't want to be wasting peoples' time, which in turn waste their lives just waiting for me, but i guess i've done it so many times. so today i'm gonna make a conviction that i would form a good habit of being puntual and so next time, because it's so habitual, i find it sooo hard for me to be late. :D

after service went to eat with my dad since i had no more money left after paying cedric the money i owe him and for the NYP camp/bbq. my dad asked me on the car: "so if you had cash, you wouldn't be joining me lah..." i was like ok...*speechless.* so anyway, we ate at a japanese resturant, and since my dad was paying i was free to order anything!(ANYTHING!) xD

sunday service was great too! dr meyer is such a living testimony, her life already reflects on how God is working in people. i mean how could someone not feel sorry for herself after being sexually abused by her own father for 15 years! for those who missed such a good word, dr meyer said this morning about how we should love ourselves. she gave her own example by how she doesn't feel sorry for herself after what she has been through. if we despise ourselves, which we see everyday, every minute, every second, how can we start to love others? dr meyer also demostrated how she loved her "enemies" by not only forgiving her father but even took good care of him. on saturday, she mentioned that there are bound to be people to hate us(around 10%), it is statistically proven! but instead of focusing on the 10%(and feel miserable for ourselves all day), why not look on the other 90%? nobody is perfect in this world, and we should just be ourselves and stop trying so hard to be someone else. now if everyone was the same, wouldn't our world be sooo boring?

well i guess this message really spoke to me in a way. in case any of you don't know, i'm actually a really paranoid person. i'm always worried about whether people will laugh at my jokes, whether i will look awkward in any situation, whether will people like me, whether will i be rejected etc. the list goes on...i guess i should stop worrying all the time and just be myself haha, kinda makes life easier huh?

i have no idea why but instead of actually posting on happening things in my life(actually i do!), i really like posting about my thoughts and feelings. i want to express how i feel and i guess the blog's just the thing! so i hope i don't really bore anyone to death cuz i kinda enjoy doing it. (:

so just to share the things that happened today: i rushed to raffles place for the complimentry hip hop dance lesson at studio wu after service. man it was really fun although i still feel i look werid dancing.(you know, long and really bony hands...eeeew) the instructor is sooo pretty! hmm wonder why i start feeling all kinds of girls look pretty in some way. xD

after the dance thingy, went over to takashimaya to eat KFC and meet my dad. he "lunched" as well before we went up to kinokuniya. after that i fell asleep in the car while he drove around to various apartments to...er i have no idea what real estate agents do all the time so yah whatever stuff he do all the time. argh i still haven't bought the psp yet...zZz c'mon my mrt journeys are sooo boring...i need a psp!

yup tmrw have to go to school 9.30 am again...weihao called me today and said i had to the spring thingy for our game. =.= great i'm like so screwed...